Month: May 2016

PASSING THROUGH THE EYE OF THE NEEDLE*

There are times when gradually or suddenly some of us feel that life is no longer, alive. What we once defined as ‘living’ ~   moments of excitement, desire, passion, and drama, ~ are now missing.  Painfully, missing. Painfully meaningless, and painfully empty.

For some, these periods fade in and out. For others, major events precipitate a permanent loss of worldly interest and involvement.

For an undeterminable time, we struggle with trying to ‘go back’, or heal or escape this hopefully, temporary condition. Finally futility sets-in. We seem to endure a moment to moment existence in emptiness, for what seems like eternity.

We are stuck in the eye of the needle*. There is no going back, and we are confronted with the unknown in front of us.

At the very thought of the unknown, fear paralyzes us. When we finally start to thaw, and the fear becomes an energizer of sorts, we start turning our attention to something we did not see before. We begin to become aware of our self. Not as a participant in the world, but as a character created by the world.

Who is this? What is this?

We become conscious of this persona, it’s vagaries, thoughts, and emotional reactions. And as we become more interested in this phenomena, we start to separate our identity from it. It becomes a  separate entity in itself. It becomes a specimen under our microscope. And, we become a fan.

Interest and fascination grows. Maybe, for the very first time in our lives, we are aware of a pull to simply observe something, without a twinge of judgment, or selfish motivation. We find that in observing and discovering the deep and wide of this character that we use to think was us, a new spark has been kindled.

We have stumbled upon the inner world . . .

*”The eye of a needle” is scripture quoting Jesus recorded in the synoptic gospels: “I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.”

Self-discovery is the path to wholeness.

‘Wholeness’ is enduring inner peace, confidence, and joy ~ no matter what seems to be occurring outside of us.

We become as little children, following our hearts, our curiosity and sense of adventure ~ free of time constraints, free of people-pleasing, free of goals or reasons, and most importantly – expectations.

We feel complete without any effort on our part.

When we are captured by the wonder and delight of a baby, or nature, or beauty, there is total fulfillment and wholeness present ~ nothing to be added or subtracted.

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Below are some random insights into the area of Self discovery ~ a path to ‘wholeness’.

Wholeness is the balance of the light and the dark. Wholeness is freedom.

Beliefs are our security and our prison.

I Believe . . . Our beliefs direct and form our life stories. We can choose differently at any time, just by adding two words, “I choose . . . to believe…”

Freedom is no beliefs. Is awareness. Is forgiving.  Is knowing I don’t know.

WYSIWYG is simply that what we focus on becomes our reality. We can choose what we want to focus on. We can choose our experience of reality.

To explorer The Unknown is a willingness to see ourselves beyond the limitations of who we think we are.

 

Being here, in this very moment, is rare.

There seems to be a glass wall separating us from life in 3D living color. We can see it, but we cannot touch it.

We are on the other side of the glass wall, called no-life. Here dwells the past, the future, and endless distractions. We are mired in our minds at the cost of suppressing our aliveness. We are being dragged on by the unseen, rejected and crippled ‘children’ of our psyche.

Our life force is numbed by our mental stories (beliefs). The age old battle between the heart and the mind. However, our life force can only be suppressed to an extent before it explodes, and must finally make its way to the surface to be released. This is life saving and life generating.

The process of being in the moment, begins with observing this impacted energy, which we call emotions. With curiosity. With no agenda. Just because. Ah yes, and with courage.

With eyes closed, put aside the mental drama and focus on the emotion. Locate this sensation within your body. How does it feel? Anxious? Suffocating? Overwhelming? Paralyzing? Dark or light? Size? Shape? Color? Weight? Observe it in great detail.

Now increase the intensity of that sensation. Let it in. Really feel it. Magnify it to monster-like proportions. Like holding your breath underwater, hold it. Hold it.

Keep holding, expanding, and feeling that sensation until it suddenly releases.

There is now only spaciousness and freedom.

We are being the pulse of aliveness.

Being